March, 23, 2016

10:35 AM

Woke up a little late. 6.5 to 6.8 hrs of sleep. Maybe 10:10 to 5 AM at the most.

Gloomy at first, but my job keeps me focused.

Panda got a shower, was in good spirits.

March, 22, 2016

• Ashley got these handcuff things for the van. Was slightly afraid to show them to me for fear that I would not be "into it". She is in for a surprise...

• She asked me if I was comfortable about her talking about her male co-workers. She did not have to do this, it was very considerate.

• She spent a little extra time on the video game with work friends. To her, I looked very mad about this, it was 8:30 and the kids were going nuts. She did not get offended, and even apologized a few times. I found this very considerate.

Gloomy morning, but me and Panda watched "Fuller House" for a bit before school. Bit of a corny show, but she likes it. Still explodes like a bothered parrot and flies to the bus when she sees it. Funny, kind of odd though. She got good ratings at school, but was very fussy and misbehaving while we were out. Not snapping at her as much, trying to subtract by adding. Removing negative responses by habitually adding positive ones.

Kota had another good day. Ate breakfast, very sweet, a little hyper at the end of the day. Was surprised when I hugged him. Can't believe I built a little wall with my little four-year old.

Cass and me bonded as usual. Brushed his teeth twice today. Gotta watch for diaper rash.

Got some things done, shorted on others. Feel strength entering my body, trying to calm the raging fires. Such explosive emotion, like lava in my veins. Channeling it into the work on my body, forging myself for fighting and f***ing. Sex and strength.

Sexual conquest tonight. Fucked her rather normal, then brought her to orgasm with my mouth, then immediately started fucking her again, but in more of a "rattling" fashion. I don't think she was expecting something like that. Her reaction was priceless. I extended the orgasm for quite a while, that or created multiple. Deep lovemaking. I am quite satisfied. Except that I never am. Always stay thirsty.

I wanna say on the 22nd I slept maybe 6.5 or 6.8 hrs. Tried to get more this morning, no luck. Woke up 15 mins late. Glad I did or she wouldve missed work. Sometimes my stupid internal clock comes in handy.

March, 21, 2016

This morning Ashley had to work, but we woke up too late. No snooze button on the computer alarm. She could not call in, as she wants to make a good impression.
Despite being late, she leaned across the bed to kiss me, express her love, and leave.

I was short with Panda this morning. I feel bad, I would get cross with her for making too much noise, and not knowing where her clothes or school folder was.  I need to calm down, but this morning was not a normal morning.

Kota was good, very good this morning. He ate several bites of leek and sausage soup ("Summer Soup", an invention of mine an Ashley's) He did not cause any trouble getting ready for school, and was pleasant and sweet as I gathered his clothes.

Cassian has been a little less active today. Lots of hugs and kisses.He just woke up, meowing at the cat.  Plan to hopefully take him on a walk, or at least outside, but my heart is thumping right now hard, so we will see.

Done so far:
2 loads of laundry in the works, one sorted and put away.

Finished an assignment for school.

Most of the living room done.

Partial load of dishes.

Altar set up partially.