I have to say...yesterday was hard, but I need to jot down the little things, they matter.

Ashley I would prefer you not read, but I will not demand, if you need to, then by all means do so.

-Ashley was profoundly bothered by the effect yesterday's revelation had on me. That was sad, but I know partly it was due to her protectiveness. I love her so much.

-We somehow ended up having really raunchy sex after this. 

-She did not evade talking.

-She was attentive last night, sought closeness and cuddled a lot. THat matters a great deal to me, even if I slept kinda wonky.
 
Kota and Panda were both good today, they just need tlc. Panda needs boundaries but also approval. Kota needs a little bit of a loose leash but also some firmness. Cassian is climbing all over the place and I can't figure out what to do.