I really gotta stop beating myself up over this kind of thing, at least not so bad.

Look. When you are trying to make massive changes to your life, it's like climbing Hell's Dagger. Grappling with ice and snow. There are times where you will probably slip. Maybe you lose precious inches or feet or yards in your ascent, but you didn't fall off. You didn't fall off the mountain and you didn't drop your stuff. You may have freaked out, maybe even shit your pants, but you are still hanging on.

I have climbed a lot this month. I am happy. We are happy, and I am not stopping.